On farewells

come here you idiot
we kissed
i drank it for a six month period
six months
where i'll be in bed
pillow against the neck
doing my best to remember
fingers down your back
muscles contracting in scales
up and down
you'll be ziplining
onto platforms
i'll be here
learning the breaking points
structure of zig zags

on our last night
didn't even want anything
just to be close
we both knew this was a
skin thing
a while ago
and it was
and it wasn't
playing at love
the feeling of it
fingertips
searching for it
seeing you
me for the first time
bellies full
blasted on wine
intermezzo
what it was
clean sheets

cooking hot
on a wednesday evening
that effortless sensation
not exactly wanting to
sum things up
but to put
punctuation
in here somewhere
something meaningful
spacing the feelings
in phrases
a gesture
touching your chest
a combination of clothing
unlikely but for this
kept our clothes on
longer than usual

played you my girlfriend
played me i was there some
times